Karma Or Curse?

This war that I've been fighting
is it karma or is it a curse?
am I mentally insane?
can my life get any worse?
all hope for a cure is lost
I can't seem to find a nurse
it's like I'm battling cancer
soon I'll be riding in a hearse
it's really hard to tell the difference
when everything in life is a blur
sometimes things just need
to be shaken and not stirred
but there are times when things
don't add up or seem to concur
like a cat with extreme hunger pains
feel the gentle vibrations of my pur
Lord why don't you allure me
with a treasure so pure
erase my feelings of hatred
and replace them with feelings of grandeur
I have the guts so where is my glory?
I'm so tired of suffering help me revise the plot of this story
to all of my heartless crimes I plead guilty
give me the tools I need to survive this journey
bail me out of this prison that they call life
I can't seem to get an attorney
see when it comes to living
I'm far below the medium
thanks to all these tribulations
my life has become the definition of tedium