Autophobia

Ever since my memory could implement

I had been damned by the element of

A chronic case of bleak self loathe

As demonic whispers trail behind me

Casting opinions derived from self fear

To create fear as well as supreme hatred

Of its creator, stimulating my cerebellum

Driving my thoughts to shocking venues

Teaching me to hate the very person that I am

As softly I crooned in silence to myself

'I never wanted for this to happen.'

'I had never wished for hate

To devour my integrity.'

Yet it transformed my dreams in to nightmares

Shadowing my innate ability to project myself

It has thrusted me into a scenery of destruction

Refusing to cease its latch on the core of my life

And now my body has been swamped by an ocean

Of despicable promises and gruesome macabre oaths

My only request is to be free of this incarceration

Of autophobia before I am driven to the edge of suicide